Hear Myself

I hear voices

They're driving me insane

Turn back, surrender to every face standing judging me in pain

I have dreams

They make too much sense

Living drenched and confused in a perfect-future tense

I've jumped a thousand rooftops

I've screamed to the dark sky night

I've drank too many poisons

Nothing seems to make it right

I've been in places

That you don't know

I've watched you start life

I've watched you breathe and grow

The blood clogging in you

I see you're ill and I am crystal

And don't know what's real.

I have stories

That have never been told

Open my mouth to speak, feel the stiches distorting my speech

I have scars

That have never been made

Wake up at night screaming  to the walls, blood leaking from my veins.

I've won a million battles

In which I never fought

Seen my soul in flames

In the million mirrors that I've bought.

I just cannot help myself.

I just cannot help myself.

I just cannot help myself fix me.